Hope

I am becoming increasingly excited for the future. For so long I was going down what seemed to be a dark tunnel with one thing at the end a career in pharmacy. Not only have I been disappointed twice with going through the application process and ending up empty handed, by following down this dark tunnel I wasn't able to see the smaller more scenic path over to my left. In discovering this path I have realized a career in nursing is something I think I could obtain and excel in. I feel almost at ease with this new option because I don't have to worry about the failure if pharmacy doesn't work out. The true question will be...Am I going to be able to get into a nursing school? I am on a mission to be more positive. I constantly think the worst is going to happen to avoid being let down. From this point on only the best things are in store for me, I deserve it. In analyzing why I am never positive I think it is because if I tell myself and other people things aren't going to work out then when they don't I don't have to explain anything I can simply say...See I told you, I knew it wasn't going to work out. Not anymore. I believe good things are about to come my way and this time when it happens I can say I told you so!! I knew I was destined for this to happen, whatever it may be.

Twilight

He could steal my pictures and reclaim his gifts, but that didn't put things back the way they'd been before I'd met him. The physical evidence was the most insignificant part of the equation. I was changed, my insides altered almost past the point of recognition.

New Moon by Stehenie Meyer

Yay

Well here we go....now I can share some of my feelings with myself. It's a crazy to know that by writing down your thoughts it helps you to understand them. The scary part is that I never write down any thoughts hence I am so confused. So cheers to a new beginning of understanding myself a little better!