First Day of Summer

Well Chris and I have been living in LBI for a month now and its been amazing. The weather hasn't been the best but its worked out for us so far so I don't have too many complaints. The only thing I struggle with is trying to be the best person/girlfriend I can be. I know I am hard on Chris and hard on myself sometimes and I don't know how to change. Chris is so confident in us and in himself and I wish I was more like him. I need to get happy and it seems so easy and I have all the reasons in the world to be happy...so what is my problem??? I feel like I say this all the time and go in circles with Chris and I have started the same fights about the same things for the past 3 years and he just wants it all to end, and I don't blame him. How long am I going to stay hung up over the same shit. This three months living together on LBI is probably going to be the best three months of my life and I think I need to realize that and begin enjoying and appreciating it more!